A thousand thoughts

going through my mind, as I sit here and ponder about my life, and how short life is. I can’t help but feel a rush of emotions. I know what I want in life:who I want to be, what I want to be, where I want to travel, what kind of family I want, etc. But when I think about how far away all those dreams are I can’t help but feel scared or worried. I know life changes and that it doesn’t always go according to plan but what if you have no second plan? What if you don’t know what else you want to be besides one specific thing. I guess its simple really, people always say it, “Live for each day.” But then I also have to think about preparation for my future… I don’t know I just have a lot on my mind, I just want a hug. But not any hug a love juice hug, or bear hug or just a hug that says so much without any words..